Exhausted

I am exhausted. Strangely yesterday I felt great, the aches in my arms was barely noticeable, I had amazing energy all day and normally I nap for a couple of hours during the day, but the last couple of days I haven't felt the need to nap. I even spent an hour on the treadmill at a gentle pace nothing too strenuous but I still managed a sweat.

I knew that this morning would be difficult getting up for a 6am swim, especially due to the past two days of rain we have had so was not looking forward to getting into the cold pool. It was a chilly 22 degrees this morning (how sad am I?), so as per usual I had to dive in as I am not a toe in at a time person, that just puts me right off.

I only managed 10 laps today. It was really hard going, I took my time and took lots of long breaks in between which I used to stretch out my body which is really feeling it today. Only one week of dieting and exercising and I am wasted. I'm hoping things get better because today I am feeling really nauseous after swimming. I'm wondering if I am taking in too much pool water?

Have noticed that I am eating less too. I can no longer stomach 3 steaks and 3 fried eggs, I'm now down to 1 steak and 2 eggs. So hopefully the weight will start coming down. My standard diet is:-
Breakfast
3 egg omlete beaten up with a little water. Fried in a pan with butter. I then sprinkle in 2 thinly sliced mushrooms, a handful of shredded chicken, a handful of grated cheese and a sprinkling of chopped onions. I do enjoy breakfast.
Lunch
Either a seared chicken classic salad from Macca's or I'll make a chicken, gourmet lettuce, cuccumber and onions wrapped in a large lettuce leaf and I'll eat probably 2 of those. But the Macca's salad is really filling.
Dinner
Large cuts of steak or port cooked in butter and garlic with 3 fried eggs which I am now reducing my meats, and now only having 2 eggs.

I am maintaining my weight which is depressing because those first couple of days I noticed the weight coming down each morning as I weighed my self. So I am feeling confident now that I can reduce the amount I am eating because I am feeling fuller sooner and I am not picking or snacking in between meals which is something that I normally did, but I don't have that craving.

Late at nights are the hard yards for me. That's when I get that sugar crave come on and last night it was the worst it has been. I could smell chocolate even though there is none in the house. I was getting really cranky and annoyed and so I started yelling and it gave the boys a fright till I told them why I was yelling and wanted to hit something as I pounded my fists into the arm rests of the lazy boy I was sitting in. I was trying to keep my mind occupied by watching a funny movie and doing up a newsletter at the same time. Yet still my mind smelt, heard or saw chocolate wherever I looked!!!! Arrrgggghhhhhhh.

Tired now, want to spend the day sleeping. Will go to the video shop, get out the new releases and just relax because next week is weigh in and I am going to have to put in some serious workout sessions and get on top of this eating.

Day 2 of swimming

I was feeling really confident with getting up early and going swimming. However, when I got up this morning at 5.50 I started to feel anxious and dreaded going for a swim remembering how on Monday I felt nauseous all day and drained, so I wasn't looking forward to another day of that. So reluctantly I got myself ready, the fact that my Jamieboy was up and ready helped me to get into a better frame of mind.

14 laps! I did one more than Monday, I swallowed less pool water and I managed to get them done in a quicker time frame. Mind you, I was feeling it in my upper arms though and all down my side which did make it a little more difficult, but I powered through. It was nice to have a stop every now and then and have a chat with Julie which helped me to rest. Our boys, Tristan and Jamieboy did around 16 - 18 laps as they played quietly and raced each other, every now and then trialing a new stroke.

After a hot shower I was still feeling nauseous, so put on bacon and eggs to help get rid of the sick feeling and surprisingly I struggled to finish my 3 rashers of bacon and my 3 fried eggs? Normally I can smash that and more, especially with the copious amounts of meat and eggs I have been eating, yet I am finding that I am eating less, smaller portions. Mind you I am drinking around one litre of water with each meal too so that might be a reason?

Anywho, feeling much better after todays swimming session so hoping that Friday's will be just that bit easier.

Trucking On

I am seeing the change in my husband's body but not mine. He is shedding kilos by the day and I am barely getting there. Was able to stick to my diet, even tonight after mutual we did our usual stop off for dinner at Maccas and I ordered a salad with seared chicken (I prefer the crispy) and a large water. I was pleasantly surprised at how tasty and filling my salad was. I was even surprised at how satisfying my water was. I wasn't happy as I entered and had to walk past the cafe where normall I'd order the warm double chocolate cake where they would then pop it in the microwave for 30 seconds and depending if it's hot or cold I'd get the hot or iced chocolate to go with it. THAT was hard, but once chowing down on my salad and filling that hunger pain those cravings and bad feelings faded and I was very happy and satisfied as I walked out. Mind you, I did have to keep my focus fixed as all the posters with the sundaes, frozen cokes all the sweet stuff, that's what was difficult. I'm good with all the fries and that as I haven't had them in months anyway due to their Chicken wraps being really filling, its the sweet things that get to me. So getting there. No more shakes (that's the physical shaking) and sugar cravings are getting less, no severe outbursts due to not being able to have my sweets and treats. But we'll see how it all pans out. Wish me luck.